"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in. "

Memo

I love planking.

Turn my uphill battles into strength

When sorrow invades, grasps like a dart.
To retain means to observe.
Daunting the unknown.
Only 10%, I want more, but will it ever be enough? Gratitude.
Peculiarity is what I desire. From why's to wise?
No, never 100%. No distance, only from Self.
Too much impact. Too many external forces.
One vs. all, to fit means to conform.
No conformity, fire, destruction, gore, morality?
Induce the peace that could be.
Articulate all, yet change none.
Approval does not reach all.
For when acceptance takes place, all does well.

Goals for self

The dream person I'd love to become:
Humble, sincere, genuine, spunky, less critical.
I want to stand my ground without being a bitch.
Be able to stand my ground only when reasonable.
Develop self-control: actions and reactions.
Expand knowledge, obtain self-confidence.
Beneath my cold exterior is a warm heart,
allow it to array to others.
I hate being so monotone when understanding.
I need to find balance, moderation is key.
Progress before perfection,
if I'm not taking one step forward,
then I'm staying a step back.
Sometime's the only thing left to do is
fake it till you make it.

Today, I'll appreciate the little things in life

Sun ray's striking, blinding, yet soothing.
Wind, causing all to dance, nature, beauty.
Smoke evaporates into the particles of the air, peace. 
Listen to the leaves scraping against one another,
lack of concentration, deadly droning- hornets.
Relocation: front porch, they can't reach me here.
Wrong, just as relaxation kicks in, bugs, causing me to flinch.
To do list: Control reactions.
My perception, devising my emotions.
This is how I feel, but is it real?
Today will be different.

For we walk by faith, not by sight

I am an opponent,
show them no misery,
don't give in without a fight