Forever alone..

LOL like litterally. I did exactly what I thought I would. At home alone while sitting in bed listening to "Wish you were here". Sounds pretty depressing, it actually was. However, overall bearable..
I guess? Idk, I laugh about it now, that's prolly cause I'm stoned though..
I'm going downhill, I can feel her, that bitchyjane dragging me down that shitty old, rough, muddy, path.
It angers and discuses me in all honesty.
Why do I keep going back to her then?
You know what they say..
"You have to touch the burning stove a few times until you realize you're getting burned"
 I mean earlier today before going to VV boutique with Kate, I was fucking tripping out in my room.
Mad paranoia, I felt schizophrenic for moments, my heart rate going at 100 beats/minute. it was fucked. I didn't enjoy it whatsoever.
I fucking realize.. I really do.
Enough with all this saying bullshit..
Doesn't mean anything until I put it into action, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.


I hope that made sense..