I'm insane. I'm ill. I'm an addict. I'm hungry. I'm angry. I'm lonely. I'm tired. But most of all, I'm fucked.
I'm sick of not having the strength to stay clean for more than one day as of last. I just want to be where I was. I surrender, I know I'm powerless over everything but myself. I just wish that a month from now I could look at this and be like "Shit, I've really progressed, I'm already at a month clean and got to where I want to be." Then again, you don't always get what you want, so we'll see what happens.

I just want to gtfo of this life. I'm done.

Alrighty...

Weather man.. It impacts your mood to such an extent sometimes. I'm not complaining though, it's been impacting me in such a positive way the passed few days! Waking up to beautiful sun rays striking on my face. Almost like they compress into my mind and brings such joyful emotions that sinks deep into my skin. I'm happy. I love it. I know, I know, I'm not sober.. HOWEVER, I don't want to stress myself anymore. I feel like I've let loose. It is how it is, and at the moment, I'm not complaining, cause things could always be worse. It always depends on your mind set, and I'm just trying to have a positive perspective, and happiness comes with that package deal. I've been cutting down, focusing on school work as well as going to all my meetings.. That is doing the next right thing, even though I'm high. I know if I keep doing this, sobriety will come to me, as for the meantime, I'm kicking it back

Confession time

I'm really weird.. Like I'm a freak.. It makes me laugh though, nothing to be ashamed of, I guess.. LOL but no actually.. I've been catching myself staring at people, but that's not all... I examine them too.. Facial expressions, gestures, features.. WOW I'm creepy, and can't believe I just took the time to write this..
I'm gonna restrict myself from the computer next time.

Inspiration+Motivation= Success