Destroy what destroys you.

This is so typical, writing when I'm feeling under the weather.
I have an extreme bass pumping at the right side of my mind.
Times like these I wish I'd lose it.
Within my cold empty heart lies an aching sun,
no longer shining as bright as I'd like it to.
I'll survive, I'm fairly enjoying this self-pitying,
however I may just be delusional.
I'm worried, the future is causing me demolish, when I know I should me mending.
Why am I so careless..
I too am breaking, I feel my mind disintegrating.
My eyes are no longer wide open to the endless possibilities.
In fact, they're half shut.
Wow, "This too shall pass" just came on my shuffle
You know you can't keep lettin' it get you down 
And you can't keep draggin' that dead weight around. 
If there ain't all that much to lug around, 
Better run like hell when you hit the ground. 

Alright, I get it, I love my higher power.
Note to self, I'm being ignorant, seeing only the surface oppose to looking within.
I'm dwelling far too much on my past, and stressing over my future.
Present.. Present Ella, it's a present given to you in the moment.
Take it, you know it'll help you get what you want in the future,
just do the do's and it'll do you well.