Throughout the day, I had this feeling overtaking my body, that my life was going to end. I got dressed for the occasion; I figured if I'm going to die, may as well be prepared. As the day sailed aong, I realized nothing drastic was occurring, apart from my depression and suicidal idealistic thoughts, of course. However the thoughts of suicide grew greater and stronger, to the point where I was seconds away from jumping in front of moving train. Considering I didn't, I was dreading making it back home, alive. Those few seconds of contemplating between life and death already drew me apart from reality itself. I felt that alone was an escape. This is a planet surmounted with paradoxes. The idea of getting pleasure from pain is simply obscure. I want my soul to be taken far. Further than anyone's imaginations can grasp, all I pray is for it to be better than this planet of misery.

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow; no tomorrow, no tomorrow. I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take.

This song is a good representation of how I'm feeling right about now.